In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed-
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.
Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
Turned back upon the past?
That holy dream- that holy dream,
While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
A lonely spirit guiding.
What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar-
What could there be more purely bright
In Truth's day-star?
I really miss my family!!!!
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
I love the song I've got you under my skin by Frank Sinatra.
I was thinkng about this song this morning and I thought that this is like the enemies theme song!
I read 1 Corthinians 14 today and it talked about the order of worship. Im learning about God's order and seeing how it really works. Its amazing!
Ive been thinking about an old friend lately and I miss her alot and I asked God to let me carry her burdens! Im feeling something new everyday its crazy!
Satan You Have NO Hold on ME or HER!!!
till next time
Rachael
So this past tuesday we had a class with Krissy Henderson. We all met in the sanctuary at our church. I look up to Kissy so much and I don't really know her very well which is the funny thing. She told us that when she on staff here at the church she started The Living Room where the MC students could come and just commune with each other and with God.
It was an amazing night of just prayer and worship. I just walked around and told God all the things I wanted to change about my heart and attitude. I got so much revelation that night about my relationships with friends and people around me. I realized that because my relationship with God was not in the right standing, none of my friendships are in order.
I really feel that God laid on the living room on my heart and I really want to take the living room on. So I'm praying and waiting to hear from God!
till next time
Rachael
So for the past week and half I have been doing a media fast. For me Im fasting from all music EXCEPT worship, my phone, computer EXCEPT for voxing (cause this a school must), TV, movies.
I thought not being able to text would be horrible simply because I text ALOT, I text 10K a month. but it hasn't been a problem not having my phone. Granted I never know what time it is, and I don't have an alarm to wake me up in the morning. But I will say that I miss talking to my mom. I talked to her everyday more than once a day most days. SO that has really been the only thing that has given me quams.
My Fast ends Sunday, I could say I'm excited to get my phone back but I'm really not. I let my flesh take control so many times, when it comes to media / technology.
I just pray that the teachings I have learned during this fast will stay fresh in my heart.
till next time
Rachael
If you didn't know I went to Scotland in April. It was something I was something I have always wanted to do and actually got the opportunity to go half across the world. You would think once I got there I would have been so excited, and I was for about a day. Then I really started missing my mom and the states, being in a place I didnt know anything about, the language barrier and so many more things put a damper on my trip.
I broke down around the 3rd or 4th night I was there because I missed my mom. I felt so stupid and like a little child I have never missed my mother like that in my entire life. Tiffany was right by side to help me through. Love that girl more than she knows!!
I have been back from Scotland since April 17th. You can ask anyone from the team that I have had th worst attitude and i have been so negative towards everything especially myself. I just had this spirit of apathy over me and I didn't care which is the bad thing.
I DO CARE!!!!
I have such a heart for people, and I don't think the rest of the MC team knows that, which is sad seeing that I've lived here 9 months. I have a heart of empathy and I will start showing this.
till next time
Rachael
This week has been so crazy! It feels like Tues but its already Fri !!! I hate feeling like i'm losing track of time!
I miss mom so much!! She's amazing! I love you mom!!
Ashley and Sonya finally had enough on the van!! lol jk it was really funny tho.
And with Scott too!!!
God has been so good this week! Not that he's not all the time! But we have hadsome amazing classes! Just ask Ill post about some later!
till next time
Rachael
I am starting a new season in my life. I wake up in the morning proclaiming things over my life. I love life with everything I am. It's still rough sometimes but that's life.
