The dream that births within me
The thing that eats at my heart
The longing to feel the embrace of a father
The revelation that pours from my lips
the mistakes I make
The correction I deserve
The i'm sorries to be made
The love to be shown
The smiles to be worn
The hair that needs help
The shoes that are lost and need to be found
The heart that aches
The heart thats healed
The beauty of a savior
The beauty of imperfection......
all this worn today and left at the feet of someone greater.....
Today has been different. It has been a good day but it has been a different day. I like different days most of the time, because that means variety, and variety is good. Today in Pastor Lawrences class we learned that there is a very very important molecule in our body called Laminin. The molecule actually holds our cells and molecules together. With out it, our molecules would just fall to pieces. It was really cool. If you google this molecule you will find that every structure shown is in the shape of a cross. We have a visionary on the team, yes her name is Chantel. She has this amazing gift at seeing the things that we see as small and she makes those things come to life in your mind. She had us write out our goals, and for the first time I actually enjoyed it. They always made us do this in school, and it was so boring! Its so much cooler when we know that anything is possible with God. I am going to David's (My brother) graduation tommorrow, and Im super stoked about it. A few of my friends are also graduating. I cant wait to see family, and visit for the weekend. PLUS we have a service on Sunday at my home church. Yeah!!
This morning, i was the first person to wake up. For those of you who don't know me very well, I am not the person to wake up early at all. I shower at night so I can wake up at the very last minute. I jumped in the shower and I started talking to God. It was really nice. I like starting the day off by conversing with my Savior. Then, when I got to school we had another time of prayer and I was just so encouraged. I was in such a great mood and there wasn't a thing in the world that could take me down off my Jesus cloud. Then it happened....
*to see a shark
*to eat banana pancakes
*to bungee jump
*to water ski
*to learn of another culture
*to see a drive in movie
*to travel to ten countries
*to cook something incredabley tasty
*to get lost in a field of sunflowers
on the road again.... This afternoon we are headed to Pampa, Tx. (Yaaaa!!) I am very excited to see how the service goes. God has alot planned for this week. Here lately I have been realizing how lucky I am to have the people in my life that I do. I am very blessed with family and friends. Being in Masters Commission, I have became really close with the people around me. I miss my family (and all the extended family) but God blessed me with all the people here who really just stepped out and encouraged me, even when they barely knew me. Thank you God for all the people in my life. ;)
Yesterday I went swimming along with Sonya, Sharayah, Jessica, Ashley, and Zack. It was a blast! We went to the Mooney's house because the pool at our dorm had chemicals in it, and if we were to swim in it, our skin would fall off. Okay, that may have been an exaggeration...but the point is that we couldn't swim in the pool. Thanks, Pastor Dan and Julie for letting us come over! Sonya and Zack teamed up against me and Sharayah for a game of pool basketball. Yes, Sonya and Zack may have won, but Sharayah and I gave it our all. Sharayah did great for not being able to swim! She actually scored most of our points. I attempted to play defense, but my efforts went fairy unnoticed because I always ended up underwater. Sonya and Zack always managed to turn the tables on me. It was great fun! Then Ashley and Jess showed up and we spent a good twenty minutes trying to convince Jess to get in the pool. She finally got in...after all, she was already soaked. Ha! We ended our swimming fun with some water aerobics that Julie taught us from outside the pool. We were tired, but it was a great day overall. May your day be full of happiness and love! Much Love!
So everyone likes to call Texas the Promised Land!!! We are headed off to Pampa Texas!! We are going to be at our third year, Scott Guthrie's home church!! I am so pumped!! Last year when we went we had to cut the service short because of tornado weather!! We left the church and went over to a family in the church's house! They let us stay there for an hour or so until the weather was calm enough for us to go home!! And Scott was telling me their first year to go the weather was bad too!!! So we are praying for great weather tonight!!! So sad though because Scott is not coming home with us becuas he is going to stay with his family!!! I am glad that he gets to spend time with his family though!!!
Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to, but the bumble bee doesn't know that, so it goes on flying anyway. Marykay Ash.
Kids have this amazing ability to astound adults. " How did he get his head stuck in there " "How did she swallow that?" and it never fails that if you look away for more than two seconds they will have climbed onto the tallest object in the room, no matter how impossible it would be for their two feet self to climb the eight foot bookshelf.
All that said, kids do these things because they haven't been told they can't or that it would be impossible They just keep going until we burn in their brains that some things just shouldn't happen, until we start belieiving they just CANT.
Imagine if we started believing in what should be true, rather than what it possible?
such as, if we all gave, people wouldn't starve. The truth will come out. We are accountable in this life for how we treat people. Love can change this planet.
Well i didnt lie or anything but.....this is where i got the title! Well my back started hurting because i sleep horrible! Well so also my neck started hurting!!! So i was in a little pain! Well then when my neck hurts in a certain way then it gives me a head ache!!!!!! AAAHHHH!!!! Well then i started getting nausea!!!! So i went home a took a nap and i started feeling much better! Chantel made me make sure that i was keeping my spine straight so that i wouldn't hurt it any worse!! So since then i have been trying to sleep better and it has made me feel a lot better!! My back hurts a little bit but i am doing good!!!
So yesterday in morning prayer God showed me that sometimes He breaks our bondages and breaks us free, but then we get caught up in stuff again, and we wonder why He didn't really break us free from it, because if He really broke us free we wouldn't get mixed up in it again, right? Well, at least that's how it is sometimes for me. But it's not that He didn't break us free "good enough" or whatever, but if we are going to stay in the environments, mindsets, and situations that helped us stay in bondage before, then God's breaking our chains doesn't matter much. If someone is an alcoholic, and then they go to rehab and get sober for 6 months, and as soon as they get out of rehab they start hanging out at bars all the time again, well, more than likely they will start drinking heavily again. So when God breaks you free from something, you need to evaluate and change some of the things you do, some of the places you go, some of the people you hang around, etc.
Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)
Chris Tomlin
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone, I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
My chains are gone, I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbid to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine
